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Life has been a roller coaster for me the past few months. I broke up with my girlfriend before finals last semester so my holiday season kinda sucked, but at the same time it was pretty awesome. It was so great to see old friends again and just to spend time with them. Also hanging out with people from Pulse always helped. But I guess I've been running away from the problem for a while that I never really faced it.

I am suffering from loneliness. And although I've talked to many others about it, I still struggle with it. I'm a big heart guy, so relationships is where I feel like I really grow and bloom. But without one I'm kinda emo when I'm by myself. I know that I don't need a girlfriend. In fact I'm not even sure I want one. But hey if God wants to bless me with one that's awesome. I'm not gonna try for a while.

I guess I've been trying to fill a void of just friends and family. But I should start filling it up with God. God has been great to me these past few months. I've never really felt depressed and was always surrounded by loved ones. So I guess I'm just slowly trudging through. But you know what, that's ok. Because eventually I'll be able to walk tall again. But gotta let the wounds heal.